just finished seeing the new blink vid. it's so not what you would expect from blink. it's really good though. it's like kinda..eerie? tom plays his guitat kinda high in the video. haha only a bit. haha. well anyways yeah. it's suuuuuuuch a good video. mark and tom look cool. and of course travis. haha. erm...didnt go down to see incubus today. supposed to be going tomorrow but i cant get a hold of nicole so iunno. errrrm...justine i still want my juice. hah. ummm..today wasnt really interesting...tomorrow probably incubus like i said before. wednesday ive got my history exam which i should probably start studying for. thursdays free and friday...town possibly? carly? hm? i wanna see the original sunrise guy. and he strokes cd is 14.99 at hmv and um theres a winter clearance in old navy and a sale the bluenotes clearance racks are calling my name. hahaha. =)

fell in love with this song the first time i heard t which was a few months ago but yeah for some reason today i just feel like writing nothing but the lyrics to that song. i guess it just relates to how i'm feeling today.

I`m sick of always hearing
all the sad songs on the radio.
All day it is there to remind
an over sensitive guy
that he`s lost and alone, yeah.

I hate our favorite restaurant,
favorite movie, our favorite show.
We would stay up all through the night,
we would laugh and get high
and never answer the phone.

I can`t forgive,
can`t forget,
can`t give in.
what went wrong?
Cause you said this was right.
You fucked up my life.

I`m sick of always hearing
sappy love songs on the radio.
This place is fucking cursed in its plague
and I can never escape
when my heart it explodes.

I can`t forgive,
can`t forget,
can`t give in.
what went wrong?
Cause you said this was right.
You fucked up my life.

I`m kicking
out fiercely of the world around me.
What went wrong?
I`m kicking.

um here's a brief recap of last night since im too lazy to type the details

surprise jam for mel at tines was cool. edison`s the life of the party. haha. justine should`ve done the dare. it would`ve been "too exciting". pictures kept getting deleted. *ahem* mark. someone kept tripping kyla and slapping her ass....mark...haha just blame everything on him..oh man mel was so dead. stupid fucking mom though made me come home early as fuck. 1130 IS early you can`t argue with me on that. chinese parents are fucking impossible (not just because of this one incident). kept bitching at me in the car like i actually did something wrong. holy moley. well whatever...anyhoodles...eeerm...yeah that`s the end of my story.

short and straight to the point. good times. i'd prefer to have had more juicing involved but hey it was fun. mark comes inside from the balcony eyes red and starts smiling. yes mark, we cant tell that you were just burning. hahaha. eeeeerm./ went to pickering today. then to town. stopped at sunrise. he's switched the trucker hat for a toque. haha. still hot. ran into lori..havent seen that girl in aaaaages. haha fully checking the sunrise guy out and tries to deny it. hahaha. come on nowww....... hahaha anyhoodles. erm....i'm bored.

eeerrm.....WHO'S READY TO FAIL THEIR FIRST EXAM TODAY? hahaha I AM! I AMMMMM! hahahahaha. oh looord. jase might be coming to pope todayy..hopefully. hahaha. all just to see tj. haha. oh man. errrrrm....tine's place tonight for mel's surprise jam? um. i think so. i'm not really a party person but hey i just want the juice. haha freaaaals. allllll i want is the juice right now. exam's gonna stink. i havent been studying. im gonna faaaaaaail. hahaha yay.

haha funniest day in second period. spent the period coming up with band names/ album names. all these emo suggestions kept coming from me. hahah all the emo names were from me and they were all i could come up with. hahaha. we planned it all out had some good jokes. hahaha it's hilarious. im too lazy to type all the jokes. but. CHALKBOARD ERASER. HOORAY FOR ANUS. ALEX IS ON FIRE. SMELLY FAT WALRUS TITTY. hahaahaha. maaan. eeeeeeeeerm...the rest of the day basically sucked. well compared to second. traffic jams in markham. liiiiiike, learn how to drive people. come on now. moved like 2 meters in an hour. jeeeez. it's colddddddd.

bass? yes. can sort of play seven nation army. went to nicoles afterschool. dashboard tribute. behind the music. haha. so funny. i'm dying.....second semesters gonna start...im gonna diiiie. i'm having a blink day today. all im listening to is blink for some reason. old blink though..anthem part two, relckess abandon, carousel, etc.

okay so it's a christmas song and christmas is uh..11 months away...ITS A GOOD SONG. hahaha. eeeerm....i'm gonna learn bass guitar. normal guitar is pissing the fuck out of me. i dont even like guitar. jeeesus christ. bass is cool though. i've always had a little thing for bass players and justthe bass in general. haha in second period i was sooo wacked out. haha. it was funny. SOOOOOOOOOULMATE! hahaha. nicole's guitar teacher is my soulmate! hahaha apparently he is. ummm.......nothing's been going on...


i have a little rant about popular kids. not because im jealous. its honestly, sweear to god, not because im jealous. its because i get annoyed when people think that just because they're more popular than someone else that they're all of a sudden above the other. like they're superior to someone else just cause in highschool, they dont have or dont care about having a shitload of friends. and i've always thought that that is so wrong. that someone could say they're above someone else when really, no matter what you do, no one better person is any better than the next. i don't care if you're comparing a serial killer to mother theresa. i just don't think it's right and i don't think that's fair because although i know mother theresa has done maaany wonderful things for children all over the world, everyone has got their flaws, maybe not the same flaws, but they have them. and it's just not right to say you're any better than anyone else. they say we learn about history so we can learn from their mistakes, but this is just like racism and slavery, except in a maybe no so noticeable form. so yeah i'm gonna copy and paste my rant from my other thing....


i know i`m not popular, i know i`m not "cool", i know i don`t fit in, but i`m not asking to. don`t try some bullshit and act as if you`re better than me just cause you`re popular. i don`t give two shits how many people you know or that people talk shit about me. people are always gonna be talking so why would i let it bother me? let them talk, it`s not like their opinion actually matters. go ahead and insult me if you feel like it, i`m not gonna let it get me down, i`ve got more important things to do with my life. if you a take a good look at life, where does popularity really play into everything? it doesn`t. i`m not sorry that i won`t fake it to be cool and i`m not sorry that i`m not a typ. conforming can kiss my ass. i know i`m a loser? so what? haha. really? like i`m honestly able to laugh at myself when i`m stupid and make a fool of myself, are you? there`s no fun in being normal. i`m not saying all popular kids are like this because i do have friends in the so-called "popular crowd" even if i`m not really that tight with them anymore, and this isn`t because i`m jealous, i couldn`t care less, but when people act as if they`re a better person than you are just because they have more so-called friends, than it`s just stupid and you`re asking for it. popularity is nothing, it`s just not important. i don`t know, sometimes people can get so ignorant it`s pathetic. regardless of anything, it doesn`t give you the right to act like you`re above someone else. it just doesn`t. if you can go to school and just honestly be yourself, not putting on a mask everyday, you`ll have my respect. that may not mean anything to you but i see so many fakes everyday that it`s definitely something to me. real people gain real respect. not some fake shit.

eeeeerm....went to nicoles today to work on our project. haha the girl have tourette's moments. like when she screamed shut up and i could hear it loud even though my earphones were in my ears and i had my cd on full volume. hahaha scared the shit out of me. hahaha. and when we were talking to tj and i was writing something she asked me to ask but then said im not supposed to. hahaha that girl's crazy. hahaha. oh maan. anyway..um im kinda lazy to retype things so here's a conversation im having with one of my friends..it's kinda long but it's interesting...im "layz__" and pennylane is carly (trulyjaded.blogdrive.com)


layz__ says:
haha i spend hours sitting here clicking links to political sites and everything..i need a life hahaha
penny lane.* rest in peace marcus. its been a hard few days. says:
haha and you send me to half those sites and i spend half the time you do clicking damn you
layz__ says:
hahahaha
layz__ says:
that's the way it works
layz__ says:
hey like....no one else gives two shit about politics
layz__ says:
well you and squirrel but no one else!
penny lane.* rest in peace marcus. its been a hard few days. says:
we might as well
layz__ says:
haha ive gotta send it to one of you
layz__ says:
haha exactly...jeeez...im not gonna sit here and be ignorant to how im getting screwed over
penny lane.* rest in peace marcus. its been a hard few days. says:
haha exactly
layz__ says:
if you're gonna get screwed over you might as well know about it
layz__ says:
but ewww i was having so much fun 2003 cause canada kept saying no to americans and jean chretien started growing balls. but then here comes mister paul martin..mr im gonna be best friends and bosom buddies with bush...liiiiiiiike come on nowwwwwwwww
penny lane.* rest in peace marcus. its been a hard few days. says:
i know wtf is that
penny lane.* rest in peace marcus. its been a hard few days. says:
but as david was saying in febuary when they call elections for priminster hes not getting re elected
penny lane.* rest in peace marcus. its been a hard few days. says:
www.moveon.org
layz__ says:
yeah but who's going to stop him?
layz__ says:
there's no one
layz__ says:
thats the same thing with bush
layz__ says:
you can say how evil he is and all that but no one's gonna stop him
layz__ says:
there's no one major candidate to go against him. the votes are so spread out that they'll never win and bush'll stay another 4 years
penny lane.* rest in peace marcus. its been a hard few days. says:
yeah thats the downside they need someone who will stand up and fight and save the u.s
layz__ says:
and that right now....sure there's like probably a few candiates who could do that...but the votes are way too spread out to make a real difference...even if there are the two three candidates who would change things around, it's still the same old story. bush has got people blinded. major company owners and millionaires gain way too much from him and have a huuuge influence on voting
penny lane.* rest in peace marcus. its been a hard few days. says:
exactly there blinded and even all these anti bush campains that only effect not even 1/3 of the voters won't really make a difference becuase of bush's influence
layz__ says:
and yeah americans arent stupid. a lot of the mdo know what's going on. but they wont do anything about it. or if they will do something about it. their beliefs are so different, and they've been fooled by some other candidate, they wont beable to get anough votes for one person to beat bush..if they concentrated all their votes on one person they woulds have a chance,
penny lane.* rest in peace marcus. its been a hard few days. says:
yeah
layz__ says:
but they all believe in something different. canada's no better. paul martin pisses the shit out of me but i dont wanna see that new allied party win
layz__ says:
i think the best leaders would be normal people. like...the people you see everyday..just some average person
layz__ says:
that would everntually suck though because the power and greed would get the best of them
penny lane.* rest in peace marcus. its been a hard few days. says:
yeah who knows what the people need and want and who will actually listen to the public
penny lane.* rest in peace marcus. its been a hard few days. says:
true true
penny lane.* rest in peace marcus. its been a hard few days. says:
then they would turn into just another polioticion
layz__ says:
exactly
layz__ says:
and the whole women should rule the world thing is probably even worse of an idea than anything we have now cause everyone knows girls just dont get along
penny lane.* rest in peace marcus. its been a hard few days. says:
and there more into the talking alot of shit behind everyones back being to faced and it just would work ou
penny lane.* rest in peace marcus. its been a hard few days. says:
out*
layz__ says:
true..but it'd still suck...the world is absolutely hopeless
penny lane.* rest in peace marcus. its been a hard few days. says:
it is
penny lane.* rest in peace marcus. its been a hard few days. says:
and its sad
layz__ says:
yeah....i like to be the cynical one and laugh about how badly the human race and human intelligence has deteriorated but its not actually that funny its just pathetic



i'm not anti-american. jesus christ. i'm just anti-bush.

just got back from the library with nicole. ughh..we have to finish our project by monday. we had like an effin month and we dont start till now. hahaha. kayleigh's in our group too...yeah....ummmm...err....life's kinda boring right now..nothing going on but school stuff. exams, etc. incubus live at much. i'm gonna TRY and get wristbands. if not i'll probably be freezing my ass outside for a little glimpse of mike and his uber cool hair. haha. yeaaaah..good day.

arggggggggggggggggggg....arg? uggggh...i'm so tired. it's so friggin cold outside. i sweaaar i couldn't feel my face. haha. holy moley. err...ew i have math tomorrow. ew i have to see mr nashed's ugly face. history was funny today. samantha was turning everything into a bird. haha. pictionary. uhhh...rest of my classes were boring. afterschool i froze my ass off. there were a lot of people at lunch today. usually there's only like 5 or 6 of us but today there was like 10 or 12. didn't stay in the caf with them. just walked around with janna. haha i was verbally assaulted all day by tj. haha. first period i get called emo just cause i was making fun of linkin park and calling them mallcore. haha. it's TRUE. jeez. at lunch while walking around i get called emo some more by tj. right before third tj AND luke call me emo. before fourth he walks by my class and says im emo. haha. jeeeez. people are so mean these days. i mean...emo....that's such an insult. hahahaha. just kidding. i'm not the one who downloaded and LIKED a dashboard confessional song. hahaha. chris carraba. chris crab. crab cakes. hahhahahaha. jeesus. okay so i do listen to emo...only boxcar racer, blink 182, tbs, and yeah that's basically it? and so i do like vintage shirts. and i do have weird and colourful socks. but that's no reason to harass me all day! especially when you like crab cakes! haha i'm gonna go sit and cry like the emo kid i am. hahahaha. stupid mallcore kid. hahaha oh man i need to stop talking to squirrel (havok) so much. hahaha. yes havok does go in brackets.

jade: davey's the worst driver ever. one day he'll get in a accident and i'll go flying from the car ten feet in the air and he'll survive. then i'm gonna come back as a squirrel and run up davey's pant leg. hahaha or something like that i cant remember the exact quote. but it was funny!